I think I have gathered enough things now to inject Benares in my past, to inject Benares in my next steps.
Integrate the inside with the outside. Rebuild the inside/outside relationship.
It took me 2 weeks in Egypt to leave Portugal. It took me a month in Middle East to finally start travelling.
Self-portrait:
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I am afraid that this someone was right... Concerning integration of experiences: I feel I am still looking at some experiences as discontinuities in my daily life whilst I wanted to be able to look at my daily life (work, routines)as a discontinuity in those experiences. Or maybe that is stupidly naive. Maybe the whole problem is that I am thinking in terms of discontinuities. Maybe I have never really traveled.
Hey, please send me a postcard if you get there. You know, to that place where you're no one else than yourself.
Everything is an event. The world is a series of discontinuities and we are that very personal process of putting those discontinuities together.
I did gather the events and valued them a lot (rebirth in Benares). But I didn't change the rules of my process. And so, these valuable events didn't expand.
I guess the same applies to you, you are not using those discontinuities you like so much in your routine.
This is all about the process of making your reality. I guess we are naturally attracted to a process that is the one of our first childhood, our first way of doing things that is not the one we want in the end. It's incompatible with the discontinuities.
This subject started around an experience in an orphanage near Kolkata and this is also the reason I have been writing about my Indian childhood. I think I need to rebuild my process. It takes practice and repetition of the new technique...
Not sure if this makes any sense to you :-)
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